Xiaoyan returned to her room in a daze and fell headfirst onto the bed. She closed her eyes tightly, trying to drive the unbearable and chaotic scene from her mind, but it was the opposite of what she wanted. The scene of Lin Yu and Su Yao’s fierce collision, as well as her indulgence in her dream, kept appearing like ghosts. Her cheeks were hot, and she was angry and happy. She was angry that she had fallen into such an absurd situation, and she was happy that the person who resonated with her soul on the Internet was so close to her in reality.
Just as she was immersed in this complex emotion and couldn’t extricate herself, a familiar collision sound suddenly came from next door. Xiaoyan opened her eyes suddenly, her eyes full of disbelief, “No way, didn’t he just… Why does he still have so much energy?” An indescribable emotion surged in her heart, whether it was jealousy, unwillingness, or something else, she couldn’t tell herself.
Xiaoyan sat up from the bed, clutching her hair tightly with both hands, struggling in her heart. On the one hand, she felt angry and ashamed of Lin Yu and Su Yao’s behavior, but on the other hand, she couldn’t give up the feelings she had built up with Lin Yu on the Internet. She recalled the bits and pieces of her online chats with Lin Yu. Those warm words and tacit responses were really hard to overlap with the man who indulged in desire in front of her.
The noise next door was getting louder and louder, and Xiaoyan’s heart was getting more and more confused. She got up and walked to the wall, put her ear against the wall, and tried to hear clearly what they were saying. She only heard Su Yao’s panting and Lin Yu’s heavy breathing intertwined, occasionally mixed with a few vague words. Xiaoyan’s heartbeat accelerated sharply, and her hand unconsciously covered her mouth, as if this could prevent herself from hearing these upset voices.
“How could he do this? That just happened, and now with Su Yao…” Xiaoyan whispered in a low voice, and the grievance and anger in her heart became stronger. She thought that her first time was gone in a muddle, but Lin Yu and Su Yao didn’t seem to be affected at all, and were still immersed in their world.
Just as Xiaoyan was struggling internally, the banging and panting sounds next door gradually reached a climax. Then, the sound stopped abruptly, and the room fell into a brief silence. Xiaoyan slid down slowly against the wall and sat on the ground, tears blurring her eyes again. She felt mixed emotions, anger, unwillingness, grievance, and deep helplessness about her situation.
She dragged her heavy body back to bed, her mind was still in a mess, and those chaotic pictures and complex emotions made it difficult for her to fall asleep. She tossed and turned, thinking of the intimate scenes between Lin Yu and Su Yao, and then thinking of the sweet conversations with Lin Yu on the Internet, her mood was like a roller coaster. Just a little confused, she was awakened by a nightmare again, and spent the whole night in a half-dream and half-wakeful state, sleeping very uncomfortably.
The morning sun shone through the gap in the curtains and sprinkled on Xiaoyan’s tired face. She slowly opened her eyes, only to feel dizzy and her body was as if it had been drained of strength, and it was unusually heavy. The aftereffects of drinking last night were still there, coupled with the mental torture, making her feel extremely tired. She looked at the bright sunshine outside the window, but her heart was dark. She didn’t know how to face the new day, and she didn’t know how to deal with the complicated relationship between Lin Yu and Su Yao.
